HOW BEING DUMPED FEELS LIKE

Have you ever been dumped? Well, I’m assuming that the answer is No or YES maybe. It’s not an easy thing to acknowledge, I mean who would want to accept that the person they loved or rather the person they thought they had a future with told them that they did not see themselves being with them anymore. Sounds crazy right?

Guess what, I have been there, I got dumped, my ex boyfriend texted me up and told me that he didn’t see a future with me and that I wasn’t able to cope with his life. Every time I think about those exact words that he said to me my body gets numb and my heart aches because it’s not easy to hear and accept those words from the person you gave your heart, your whole too. What’s even worse is I never got to know why I was dumped because I became so mad that I didn’t have the time to ask why he did it. To make matters worse, that nigga dumped me and moved on the same day with another woman or he might have been cheating on me with her during the course of the relationship, who knows?! Never bothered to find out.

Anyway, the pain of being dumped hits differently all together because you are never prepared for it, it all comes as an ambush and you are left there like a hopeless injured bird trying to find the strength to fly again even though your wings have been clipped, and the smell of death suffocates you having no faith of being saved or rather saving yourself and slowly you pass out. The pain is so great that you feel like you can never get over it, like your whole life has been crashed and it’s not easy to start over again. You feel burdened not by any form of responsibility but rather by so much pain that flows within your every vein, or arteries you wouldn’t know the difference then, but one thing for sure is that there is pain.

Have never quite understood how being dumped feels like until it happened to me on 31st of March 2019, I know you’re wondering how come I know of the exact date but hey its hard not to remember the very same day that you died inside and awaiting to be buried when your time comes.

Sounds hilarious cause the moment I was told that it’s over between us I had a mixed flow of emotions not sure whether I should cry, laugh or scream. I gradually started loosing interest in everything as I wallowed in pain not knowing what to do, I felt helpless and disgusted at myself for allowing some guy who I thought loved me trash the relationship away like it meant nothing at all. And as stupid as it may sound I even lost my appetite, like who does that, but heartaches might lead you to doing the dumbest of stuffs.

Luckily one of my friends made me come into my senses by knocking me off my world of pain. Even though she did it in the most comedic ways possible by saying “sasa wewe unashindwa kukula ju ya mwanaume, ebu Wacha kuwa mjinga na ukule hii chakula” that statement alone would make me laugh my heart out and it’s with such jokes that I eventually came back to my sanity.

Being dumped however soul consuming it may be its never worth loosing ourselves over much less when the person who dumped you has moved on and is happy in another relationship, it just ain’t worth it, but rather standing tall and dusting yourself after you got knocked down is the real deal, taking time to understand yourself and what you deserve, gives you a much better sight of what you’re worth. Afterall who said that you’ll get it right the first, second or the third time? But one thing for sure you’ll definitely get it right after.