DEAR EX

They say, “What doesn’t kill you makes you stronger,” but a part of me died when you walked out on me.
You left me with a lot of in unanswered questions.
“Was I not good enough for you?”
“Was it something I said?”
“Did your love just fade like that?”
“Did you even love me in the first place?”

I know our relationship was not the best but we were happy. I was happy.
I know I was not perfect but I was doing my best. All I ever wanted was for us to be happy.
Do you remember how you used to sneak out to come watch the stars with me at our favorite spot?
We made wishes as the shooting star made its way across the sky.
I remember wishing that our love would last a lifetime. I guess not all wishes come true. We promised each other to never give up no matter what happened. I did everything I could to keep my end of the bargain.
You taught me how to love without condition, and I’m grateful.
Do I regret having met you? No I don’t.
Do I want you back in my life? Maybe.
Do I wish that we could get back together? No I don’t.

We broke up and it broke me mentally and emotionally. I hated love. I despised you for giving up on us.
I spent months trying to forget you, trying to keep my mind off the memories. Drowning myself in my sorrow. I kept running from the pain and the anguish and I kept Falling in the abyss. I became a prisoner in my own mind. The thought of you being with someone else was killing me. I almost fell in depression when I realized that I was doing it all wrong.
All I ever wanted was for you to be happy. I had to accept that I had lost you. It was hard but I actually did. I don’t hate you, you were once my great love. I cherish the memories we shared. Its a part of me.
I had to face it and burry you in my past in order to move on. You will always be a part of me. And I’ll always respect whatever we shared. Goodbye.