FIRST THINGS FIRST

I want to tell you one good thing about me. My emotional warmth has never been a flaw. It’s actually the bedrock of my personality. You know, there is a danger in sealing up emotions of all kinds.

l want to let these tears flow because in these salty trickles you will get just how bothered l am with everything. l am literally in tears right now. Soaking this piece of paper because when l cry, l understand myself best and say things straight from my heart.

Do you know that people have different intentions when they come into your lives? Do you know that 50 percent of these intentions are bad ones? First impressions are usually so deceiving because, people fake themselves to fit our wants.

I want to talk to you about something so crucial. I want us to talk about sex. Did l scare you? What is sex? I know most of you think it is just two people making love. Sex should be sacred and shouldn’t be with just anyone. l know whack ass* people are about to be on my case but, oh well, l will still go ahead.

Is there a criteria for choosing a sexual partner? Do you know that there are a lot of infected people whose aim is to pass the disease to other people? You are in campus you meet a lady today and the next minute she is already on your bed. Do you think this disease is written on people’s faces? What’s worse is that most of you campus guys would rather hit it before you wrap it.

Do you know that this heavily thick women might be infected too despite their beautiful physique? Do you know that this men who are willing to generously spend on you might be infected too? What I’m trying to say is that, we are living in a generation where sex is taken lightly. A generation that doesn’t care for the consequences of their actions.

When is the last time you visited a VCT center or even bought a self test kit to check your status? When is the last time you actually tried to have a relationship with your friend that was not sex oriented? Did you know that when you have an intimate relationship with someone you exchange some pieces of yourself?

My question is, how many multiple pieces of yourself are you going to give to others whose health status is not known to you? l actually feel so bad that so many youths might be infected without them knowing because they thought that sex was just a joke.

HIV is also not a death sentence but once you contract it, the least you could do is take drugs and stop spreading it to others. My mind is deadened by sadness. My sadness is like a hollowness, l can’t tell you what’s worse.l feel like most of us don’t even love ourselves because if we did, we wouldn’t want to play with something so sacred. We would want to let ourselves be deceieved by the impressions people give us.

I would decribe this sadness like the death of a thousand paper cuts. And for every time l remember how fucked up this generation is, another cut to this already damaged mind .Let us learn that self care is as good as getting orgasms. Wrap it before you tap it.